Team 20!! "Baby I'm a be your motivation"

Dear Motivation,

Where have you been? I miss you! #thatisall

LOL

No seriously! I started off this year reflective, engaged, motivated and then something happened. I'm not quite certain what that something was but I got lazy, content, comfortable...misplaced my motivation. Typically, I would blame it on the winter (my hibernation season) but we didn't have much of a winter so I have no excuse. So a mere 3 months into this new year I've got to revisit my resolutions and navigate my way back on board. The only way I know how to jump start this transition is to enlist the help of others to hold me accountable. And this is where you come in. There are 3 major goals I have and I need you to remind, encourage, and check in with me on.

First up, I know many have been waiting on a weight loss update so here it is. I have lost about 80 pounds and am still close to 20 away from my goal and 40 or so away from my ideal weight. Now I have talked to the nutritionist and doctor and they have reminded me that I can't be fixated on a number and need to be more concerned with my body composition, but if you know me you know my mind is set and I won't be satisfied until I hit my mark. I actually went to a support group last week and they gave us a booklet entitled The 21 most common mistakes weight loss surgery patients make. Funny cause I probably do most of the 21 things and I'm sure it's keeping me away from those 20 pounds I need to feel accomplished. So in keeping with the theme Team 20 is now in full effect. Hit me up if you want to join. Perhaps we can keep each other on track.

I live in my head so I needed to shock myself into getting over the fact that I hit a stall, actually more like a slowing, in my weight loss. Visuals always work for me and its nice to be able to see how far I've come instead of dwelling on how far I need/want to go. Baby steps...it's all a process.

Whew, yea...my sentiments exactly! I feel better already.

The second task I've been sidelining is a return to school. While I miss being in the classroom, learning new things, and the stimulation/engagement that comes with tackling new material I do not miss homework, papers, additional student loans. Those are things that I'm just not the least bit interested in taking on at this point in my life and I'm ok with that. However, I know I need to stay on top of the research in my field and get all of my continuing education credits but license renewal isn't until next year and you guessed it...I'm not motivated!! LOL So I'm shifting gears and I have an appointment at Eastern University later this month for a school counseling certification. Hoping to get certified without having to do a second masters program so keeping my fingers crossed and waiting for my transcript review.

Finally, I've gotta give back way more consistently than I have been. I've been blessed tremendously and I know that I would not be the person I am today had it not been for the generosity of others. The teachers who's classrooms were converted for therapy sessions after school, the folks who sent care packages to a broke college student, the friends who called just because, all those who have been there to empower and uplift. I've got to do more...I want to do more. There's always a reason why not...not enough time, not enough money, not enough energy. Re shifting my perspective and focusing on the importance of why. Because someones life could be saved/impacted/changed...that's way more important than any excuse I could ever think of.